so should i give up??

Man today was a good day all the way up until it broke...i now see that maybe God is doing this it show me that i need to stop my ways and go back to at least trying to be the person i was on the road to becoming..but i just cant get that thru my head...im too busy focus on my earthly life and the pleasures that come wit that to even worry about wat God may be trying to teach me...even when i do try to do right i always seem to mess it up in some kinda way..i just overall suck at life...so should i just give up??...cause thats wat im looking towards...is just giving up..im probably gonna go to hell anyways...so i might as well accept it and move on with life...im a terrible person..and i know this..im just a walking time bomb ready to exploded...ugh im at a lost..i took all my frustration out on tyler so i doubt he even wants to talk to me right now..yea im just gonna sit here and *** ***** and just wait the rest of my bitter life out cause im really about to turn up the IDGAF and just accept the fact that im a failure....out