...Its the meaning...

so as most know Christmas is right around the corner and go course that means gift giving and receiving...so this year i thought that it would be a good idea to give Tyler a promise ring..i had been thinking about this since thanksgiving...i thought that this whole year was a test for our relationship....wen i look back over it...we really have been thru a lot...but out of all that we still managed to stay together...so why not symbolize that and our commitment to each other wit a promise ring....well eventually the idea got into in the air and tyler kinda came out and said that he doesn't think that i would appreciate it for wat it was because he felt that i was just gonna get him one because he was getting me one....wrong!...and just because i knew that he was thinking that was the same reason why i decided that maybe its not a good idea...I was planning to make this ring thing a super special thing...i had starting writing exactly wat it actually meant and was gonna get it engraved so that wen he looked at it he would remember...but for him to think that i was just doing it cause he was...ugh i hate to say it but it kinda hurt...but all in all fucc it maybe in another time the idea will come around again...but as of right now its a no go.