I feel like the simple things I ask for a never given to me..and that's something i really don't understand.  I'm not the best person in the world but I'm pretty much a good person..i make good grade, I'm nice to ppl, i do wat I'm told, i go to church, pray, i help wen i can..and after all this i still feel like all i get from it is hell.  every time i turn around i have another problem or something isn't going right for me.  Its rare that i have a day were I'm even close to 99% happii.  I'm starting to think that's maybe its me who's causing my own problems but other than worry about trying to make things work i see nothing else causing all my misery.  Its not complicated things I'm asking for either.  Its simple things like help when i need it, support, encouragement.  Seems like the only person I get this from is my boyfriend but to be honest he can only do so much.  My family doesn't give a shit to even thing to help me.  All they know how to do is put their hand out.  My friends are too busy trying to get their lives together to even worry about someone Else's life.  So where do i go to find these things.  Yea i pray to God but I really think the only prays of mine that get to him are the ones that i pray really hard not the ones where I'm asking him why.  I know i deserve more than just years on top of years of bullshit #imjustsayin