Gotta get it out

well last night was 'our' party which tuned out to be dodsons weed and alcohol party...it was basically a bunch of dicks sitting around in the house smoking weed and drinking nothing to serious...at first I was excited but something’s started to be complicated...Megan told her mom she was spending the night at my house but my mom sed no...so I arranged plans for tylers sister to act as my mom so she could get out...yea it took a while ...but I did....and wen it all came down to it...her step dad shut it down by telling me Megan wasn’t there....so I basically went thru a bunch of trouble by driving around trying to find someone to pretend to be my mom to get her out the house...I even brought enfinity and her mom into it just to help her..honestly I really don’t think she appreciated that I did for her....but then again I don’t think she knows...like really who do u know would go out of their way just to get you out the house if only for a few hours...nobody I know would..and plus I paid for her half of whatever we were chipping in for the party..but that doesn’t mean anything to anyone...but whatever......even before the party Tyler was acting kinda different I ignored it but it was still there....he barely touched me ..he didn’t wanna kiss me....he didn’t want to do anything bf and gf ish....and im sitting here like wtf did I do...wen enfinity got in the car..he was a lil more social and kinda playful wit her...but the most i got was a peck on the lips that I gave him....at that party he wouldn’t dance wit me so naturally I danced with other guys that I knew...he just sat there. walked outside and left me a few times ...basically he couldn’t have cared less what I did...wen the night was ova he gave me some crappy, hug..a peck on the lips and left....he later told me that I cant expect him to be all lovey dubby after ive been dancing with some other guy...he sed he didn’t care whether I danced with him because it didn’t bother him....but I mean apparently it is if ur treating me like some type of disease...I really don’t know what to say about it ....I felt like shit...stressful week and to top it off my bf doesn’t want to touch me ...cool...this morning he sed some feeling was still there...I hope its not the one where he treats me like im dirty...cus honestly I don’t know where that’s gonna take us......out