Gotta get it out part2

Once again im hit with many emotions...one part of me is angry that he acted the way he did last night...I know I cant change that...but we really need a compromise...right now ive reached to solutions...1.either I don’t go to parties anymore or 2.i just let him have his moody moments and just don’t give a freak.......I really don’t wanna do either one but my mind is drawing a blank to any other solutions...I know he tried of hearing about the whole thing but I mean its something I really cant get passed until its solved...the other side of me is hurting....surprisingly I actually wanna cry...[shhhhhh don’t tell nobody lol] but really it does kinda hurt a tad....to have someone u really love and care about act like they could give a damn about you. And come off as if they really don’t like u anymore...really makes you feel like crap =/...and I guess that’s the part of me that’s not letting me move on and forget about the whole thing....then again I could just be over reacting...maybe its not that serious....but there were times during the 'party' that I felt he should have been there wit me...or maybe even tell whoever that they needed to chill out....im not gonna go in to detail...but I was disrespected twice during the whole night...the guys where either blowed or drunk ..yea I handled it myself but I kinda think that he should have been there to say something too and what if i actually decided to get drunk last night like i had planned too...would you still have been actting the same way or would you actually had of watched over me so that nothing bad would happen?..i think i know the answer...but whatever maybe im just blowing this whole thing outta proportion....the last half of me is chillin...the last part has moved on and is ready to see him again...she’s looking forward to this week. Especially since its our 1 year anniversary....all she really wants right about now is to feel his touch and to taste his sweet lips again. Just kinda ready to make up for last night...ya feel me...out