God?!?!?.......GRRRRR?!?!?!

ok so today i went to church wit my cousin Kayla to see her son Mari mime....the service was great...it was youth day too so they had a youth guest speaker to speak....and i guess it was Gods will for me to be there cus lately my whole depression think has been trying to come up out of me....so ive been in a battle with that....but today that guest speaker spoke on the title....KEEP ON KEEPING ON......and the scripture she spoke from was....Mark 5:21....and to sum everything up she basically talked about how there are going to be ppl in ur life that are going to try to bring you down just as much as the devil will but we have to keep on going....and we have to have faith in God.....and that message really spoke to me .......and after the whole message thing they had another praise and worship session and during sessions like that i usually just sing and pray quietly to myself...im not really into all that yelling and jumping so much....and so everyone around me was being delivered from watever and being prayed over ...and the pastor was walking around and putting his hands on ppls forehands and i guess he could tell who needed to be prayed over cus he would walk up to them and touch them and move on to the next person or he would touch them and stand there and pray for them.....so he walked over to me and he put his hand on my forehand and he started to walk away but he came back....he put the mic down that he was holding ....and held my head in this hands(yea i know this sounds kinda weird but bare wit me)...and then out of no where i feel two ppl come up behind me one was holding me and the other was holding a blanket to put over me if i fell out or something lol.....and i saw kayla move from nxt to me.......then the pastor started to pray ....he prayed that i would have peace at mind and that my mind would be clear from all the thoughts that i was having...and that i would come out of watever was hindering me and a bunch of other things...and since i did have alot of things on my mind lately it was like he was reading my mind and praying over my thoughts and to my surprise i started to cry and it felt like a release came over me.....after he finished praying ppl held me so as i cried...than out of no where my cousin kayla started holding me and she was praising God over me and she started praying that watever i was going through or watever it was that was bothering me and alot of other stuff...i know it may not seem like much now but it really meant alot to me ..............now to switch subjects....Ms.Charolotte gets on my nerves...she literally thinks that shes a scholar and that she knows absolutely everything there is to know....which really surprises me because 1.when she was in college i did and helped her with her homework.....2. because she lives in freaking Charlotte how the hell do you know wats going on in Durham...i hate it wen she tries to run everything when the only thing she knows how to run right is her mouth......and then my mom frustrates me to the point of now return.....now my mom buys nice things.....really expensive nice things like that mini laptop she just bought about 3 months ago.....now why in the hell would you let some 3rd grader play with it while eating watermelon...like seriously WTF......and that really pisses me off cus wenever things get broken that belong to her...shes quick to either ask me to fix it or she blames me for letting it get broken which 9 times outta 10 its her fault.........ugh......and then lets go back to ms.charlotte....now her son has a baby mama....wouldn't even consider callin her his gf...now my aunt was babysitting her sons daughter and his baby mamas other child......now ms Charlotte is txting the baby mama and she is asking ms.Charlotte wat did my gma cook and can she bring her a plate and all this other mess...and im sitting her like bruh(pause)<--side joke.....wtf....are you seriously doing wat i think you are doing....and guess wat ms.Charlotte did....ms.charlotte went in the kitchen and fixed her a nice healthy plate of the lemon cake my gma made......now i thnk thats enough for you to understand my frustration.........iight thats it for now...im kinda on a roll today...i think my nxt one is definitely gonna deal wit future and my gma....out