lost but still not found

man right about not..idk how i feel...what im suppose to do....im just really out of it...i seems like life holds nothing for me...i live in the moment...idk wat the next day my hold or where imma be....i just kinda go wit it....im stressed but not to the point where i actually care.....i guess u can say the things that i actually should be caring about i dont......GOD help me....im a bus with a one way ticket to no where.....and i need to get off quick....am i high? lol no..never smoked it my life...but who knows wat tomorrow may hold....i need some type of guidance...somebody to hold my hand literally .....just for a while....kinda like an infant trying to walk...they need someone to hold their hand until they get on their feet and start taking small steps......all i ask is for someone to help me up....walk wit me a few steps and then let me go and watch me turn my staggered walk in to a vigorous maybe someone would hear(technically read) my cry...and come to my rescue...highly doubt it tho.....i wonder how many ppl i actually am a burdon too...i know one person but they say they dont see me as a burden...but i can beg to differ....lol i know i question him in my thoughts by asking "y havent you broken up wit me already" or "why do u even put up wit me".....i guess all i can is sorry....