i just broke

i just broke......i had a convo with tyler the other day and we basically talked about how my ex bf is still apart of my life....and i know it bothered him but him being the person that he is ....he wasnt going to make me do n e thing like leave him alone...but in the end of the convo he realized why me and him are so close(we'll call my ex...J; me and J have been through some stuff together at one point he was my best friend)and i realized that in order to make our relationship better i needed to let j go......so i told myself and tyler that i was gona let him go....so since then its been about 3days and i havent talked to j....after we broke up i rarely thought about him...i mean hes crossed my mind a few times since then(but tyler is ALWAYS on my mind but thats another story) but lately hes just been crossin my mind a few extra times...and its not like i need to talk to him its just its hard to let someone go just like that....ive never really had to let someone go like that without them doing something wrong.....well today is the morning of the 3rd day and i broke....i sent him a txt.....i know he probably wont read it untill like 5 hours from now but i did send it...i just needed to know that he was ok and that everything is going ok with him.....i know i probably shouldnt have but i just needed to know.....idk whether you guys have every had someone in your life that was your right hand man all together...like yall talked about everything....did everything...if they had it you had it...if you had it they had it....well that was wat he was to me...and ive been gradually trying to let him go ...and that was goin better than i thought it would but now that i actually had to drop him its alil more difficult....and the funny thing is i need someone who i could talk to about this.....but my friends wouldnt understand...and i dont want tyler to feel uncomfortable wit me talking about another dude that i need to hear from and hes my bf..thats just a situation i dont like to be in and dont want to be in......and the next person in line would be to talk to J but i cant really do that either lol...its all good tho....g2g eat this chick-fil-a ....out