wasnt ready yet

Last night was really crazii. I had been waiting for a while for him to bring it up. Since we never really talked about it, i always thought that he jus blew it off. Last night wen he expressed a little interest in talking about and actually showed that he cared, i thought it was my time to actually express how ive been feeling. Not just how ive been feeling lately but how ive been feeling all together. I opened my mouth and began to speak words that ive never said to anyone before but as soon as i did the waterworks started. Usually i can just suck it up but this time the more i tried to hide it that harder they pushed to come out, so i gave up. I guess my words just wasnt ready yet.