Friday, September 17, 2010

Choices Choices Choices

So me and tyler were having some "Relationship issues" and we kinda decided that we needed a break...so now we are on a break and its given me time to think about a lot...a few questions i have asked myself were
1.Is this wat i really want?
yea being wit him is wat i want...ive come to the conclusion that im happy being wit him(without the issues)..and i do want him to be apart are of my future
2.whats the problem that we are having?
basically i think the issue is we dont connect anymore..our paths are going different ways and we are maturing in a way that our minds are not on the same level...not only are we growing apart but we are letting ppl come between us...his family has become a bigger part of his life then wen we first started dating and he may or may not see that but its happening..and personal thats something that i have to adjust to...especially since i dislike his family with a passion and im pretty sure the feeling is mutual...on and the distance between us doesnt help any of us either
3.am i willing to step out of my comfort zone to make us work?
being put in 2nd place has never been one of my comfort zones and now im feel like im going to have to adjust myself in a position where im comfortable wit him being more family oriented...dont get me wrong im all for him being wit his fam but i just dont like them lol...point blank period...its kinda like sitting back and watching ur bf help out an ex gf that you have beef wit lol---a side question that i asked myself was do i really wana be with someone that i would basically have to schedule time to be with...i guess =/
all in all i have to make some changes within myself in order to make us work...definitely not as easy as it sounds...oh and i have to do it while still managing and dealing with the issues of my life...cant wait =/

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