The Realization

well i saw him in school today..almost busted in to tears..the last time i felt like this was wen i found out my bf of 2 years was cheating on me right in front of my face..like not trying to hide it at all..sigh..ive come to the conclusion that hes probably not gonna come back to me..and i guess thats ok..if he does decide to come back then imma be the happiest thing in the bullciddy..if not then ill manage ..i really wanna be wit him like im not even trying to front i wanna be wit this guy more than anything right now..idk its just something about him..hes like an addiction..i guess all that stuff he said to me was Game..wat my friend likes to call..Beautiful Lies..sigh..well on to the next one i guess..i really dont think that there is a next one..im not really feeling the whole relationship thing anymore..guess im just tried of getting my feelings hurt or getting my hopes up for something thats not gonna happen..still working on getting over him..but he knows where my heart is if he wants it..its gonna be hard but imma get through it..imma big girl..going to go light one up to balance out these lows this weekend..all ab my money now..misunderstood dani out