...you were the pistol to my holster..BANG...

well me and boo broke up...we both just decided that theres no point in us being together unless we plan to be together during college days...im feeling pretty crappy right now..we only dated ab 2-3 weeks but it feels like we've been together so much longer than that...seems like we broke up right wen i was ab to get comfortable..ugh sucks balls...i didnt realize my feelings for him was this strong until now..i cnt sleep..dont even feel like eating<--big deal..idk maybe im just over reacting..im actling like we've been together for years..i know ill get over it sooner or later..but as of right now it just hurts..now that i think ab it..i dont give a damn ab going to different schools..ill make that shit work lol now look im talking reckless..but its true..havent really talked to him since..but i did make it known that the option of being wit me is always gonna be there..im telling yall that boy got a special place in my heart..i just wish i never even brought up the whole thing ab us dating in college.i know eventually the convo would have came up but right now im just feeling that the heart break then would have been worth it...sigh..wat now??...not another boyfriend i know that..its just too complicated...i aint even gonna front like i dont want him back cause i do..badly..even if its just a summer romance..idc..school is really gonna suck balls now..cause we both are probably gonna avoid ea. other or act like it never happened..still holding back the tears...cnt believe i wanna cry..im too real for this lol..gotta pull it together..wish i knew wat he was feeling...but thats like trying to read another language..ull only know wat it says if someone who speaks it tells u..well i guess ill go back to laying around the house..no need to smile unless he puts it there...sigh...misunderstood dani out