say that again?

so ever since these bitch ass black ppl call ALFORDs decided they wanna talk shit about me and my bf...my mom has been on this dumb shit like she got trust issues now.....now let me lay some things out on the table so you know wat kinda person i am.....I am a A/B student that strives to be at the top of my class because im smart like that.......if im not in school im at church or doing something church related....if im not there...im either at home or hanging out wit tyler......not friends cus i dont really have any of those that are close enough to hang out wit.......i dont ask for anything....i believe the biggest thing ive ever asked for was my xbox 360 which was a bday/christmas gift....and thats all i got......ive never had a birthday party not even when i was little.....ive never been in any serious trouble...just stupid stuff like detention here and there......i do wat im told...and i dont talk back..... so why the hell is she prosecuting me by making me stay in the house and getting pissed off wen i ask can i go do simple teenage things...like go to the movies or go up the street to eat dinner...WTF>....shes gonna let the same ppl that told her i was pregnant about 7 months ago convince her that im having sex now...im still looking for the baby they sed i had about 7 months ago where the hell thats ate....o FYI BITCHES I HAVENT HAD SEX OR EVEN CAME CLOSE TO......she basically has my whole fam talking shit in her hear to the point where im the only person defending my story....so she cant hear me.....WAKE THE HELL UP SARAH ....IM YOUR FUCCIN CHILD......WEN DO I EVER HAVE TIME TO HAVE SEX....IM EITHER AT CHURCH OR AT SCHOOL WTF.....I COULDNT HAVE SEX IF I WANTED TO......STOP DEPRIVING ME OF MY CHILDHOOD...MY VALUABLE TEENAGE YEARS......IM NOT A BAD CHILD AND WEN YOU REALIZE THAT ITS GONNA BE TOO LATE....AFTER THIS YEAR IS OVER IM GONE....IM NOT COMING BACK....I REFUSE TO COME BACK TO THIS BULLSHIT......AND FUCC THEM ALFORDS......FAKE ASS BLK PPL.....THEY EXPECT ME TO BREAK A LEG TO HELP THEM OUT AND BEFORE I HAD A CAR...IT WAS A HEADACHE FOR THEM TO TAKE ME UP THE STREET TO THE MALL.....FUCC YALL AND EVERYTHING YALL STAND FOR.......IF I WERE TO DIE....I HOPE YALL WILL LOOK AT MY FACE AND SEE ALL THE PAIN HURT AND DEPRESSION YALL PUT ME THRU...AND I HOPE YALL FEEL GUILTY AS HELL ABOUT IT..CAUSE YOU SHOULD......i really dont know wat else to say....i have no absolutely no one to go to...to talk to...or who can really understand me.....fucc.....why God why me?.....why did i have the be the one to go thru all this?.......and for this long?......i dont understand...i dont see any good coming from this?.....you know the thoughts that go thru my mind day and night?....so why do you continue to let me go thru this?