---He Will---

ok so for the past week or so ive be praying hardcore....ive prayed for a financial blessing for prom and other things......ive prayed for a emotional release and plenty of other things.......well today my gospel choir from school had to go sing at this church.....so after everything was over this girl just randomly starts talking to me and her pastor walks up and asks my name and asks me do i believe in sewing seeds in ppls lives and i say yes and then he reaches in his pocket and hands me 100 dollars....i asked him was he serious cause at the moment i couldnt believe that this was really happening to me .....just wen i thought that there wasnt any possible way i could find happiness in my life....and just wen i thought god didnt listen to me any more this happens....i really ...i guess you can renewed me .....i feel so much better....a lil less than superhuman give or take......and wen i thought that my day couldnt get any better....i got to spend the rest of my night with tyler....and i believe his reaction to all of this is wat made me really see wat was happening....he was outside wen everything was going on so wen i found him and got his attention for two seconds lol....i told him wat happened and i opened my hand to let him see wat the man gave me....and the face he made was just so.....unexplainable.....its just like an expression of "wow" and "i can only imagine how you feel right now but i share your excitement" and then he grabbed me and held be for a while and right then whether he knows it or not but he surely grow so much closer to me.......its just out of all the ppl that could have been there wit me at that moment and through all the bs ive been through in the past few weeks....im glad that its him........i mean i never really thought that out of all ppl i would get the insight i do from him....but he really is my left hand in everything i do....from advice to support hes there and i cant even find the words to express how thankful i am for him.....................................................but to end my night i got to spend the last few hours before i had to go home..in his arms...which is the most calming place i could ever be............thank you bae i love you.............................and to God------words cant describe what you have brought me through....i thank you for wat you've done and wat you plan to do with me .....i praise you for my blessing .......and i praise for the pending blessings and the blessings ive already received.....i love you lord......you are the guider of my life ....and i put all things in your hands and i surrender to you.......out w/ a smile