last night me and bae had a...convo that I can't really describe...we talked ab us and our future together or separate...it was so easy to talk because we both were calm and were kinda just letting things out...he said somethings that really struck me to the heart and made me think...he said somethings that I have been wanting to say to him but was just too afraid of how he might react...I guess you could say that he caught me off guard...he knew what I was feeling/thinking without me even telling him...I know we both are stuck in between a rock and a hard place...I did a lot of thinking last night and still have a lot more to do..and I see how u have changed and are trying to make us work but I honestly think this is something we cnt fix in ourselves..this is something only time can fix...if it comes down to us going our separate ways...trust and believe that I'm not gonna let you walk out of my life for good...I know u wouldn't be able to be my friend..but I refuse to let u just cut me off all together... if I feel like maybe we should try us again then I'm going to pursue it like a mission...and if I fail then I will let it be...hopefully I won't...I'm just kinda rambling right now...I can't get all my thoughts into words...but I guess we will talk more later...love you :)