Lifes a Bitch.....so Fucc her

I'm sooo sick of life...i feel like i have no purpose at all..I'm overall not happii..yea I'm at school..but i hate school...i don't like doing work or studying...i never have had to work hard for good grades and even now that i do i still suck at it...I'm not failing or anything but my grades aren't that good...i don't work...and my only income is wateva sarah decides to give me wenever i come home..and school refunds which only come twice a year...yea I'm good at managing money but i shouldn't have to force myself to eat on campus because i have to save my money to do something else...wen i get home for Christmas break i will be siting at home everyday..while everyone else goes to work or goes to visit ppl that actually give a shit about them...i mean i could get a job but then i have to deal wit the hassle of getting there and getting back...i feel like my life has come to a standstill...been feeling like this for a while actually...yea maybe i just need to wait on God to make a move but I've been waiting for that for like forever and a day...how long do i need to wait...by the time he actually decides to make a move or show me where I'm suppose to go i may have given up already...I pray everyday faithfully..and i know I'm not the best person in the world but i try...doesn't that count for something....I'm lost and I'm just soo close to just giving up on this thing called life that i can taste it...i see ppl smiling everyday...and posting twitter posts about how they love their lives and everyone in it...i cant even remember the last time that i was completely happii the whole day...is there something wrong wit me or wat??? like really do i really just suck at life sooo much that i might as well call it quits...