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Well about the sex thing..i really dont know wat to say..im not sure that there is anything that i can say..im willing to compromise with you(if we can come up with a compromise that will work out)..but thats a phone conversation...yea ill admit that i did tweet some things that maybe i shouldnt have tweeted..some of the things i should have just kept to myself..but i see twitter as another way for me to say wat i want..yea i do try to be mindful of the things i say because i know u do read them..but if i cant say wat i want on the Internet then when can i??..the whole tweet that we discussed last night was about Q..and the only reason i didnt want to explain it was because i knew that would have turned into another "discussion" but i see now that be trying to avoid it cause more problems than if i would have just told you...i didnt want to discuss it because i knew you removed him from my friends list..but i added him back and just never mentioned it..so i knew that would have been a problem and 2. because i know how u feel about him..but i guess thats something we need to talk about later anyways...my attitude while we were on the phone was some bull too...i dnt even have an explanation for why i was even acting like that..i was just because an ass and i cnt justify that in any way..yea you tried to talk to me...but eventually u just kind gave up..dnt get me wrong i always care about how you feel..just as much as you care about how i feel..never think that i just blow you off cause i dont care about your feelings cause i really do..over all i think that convo went well too..we eventually got to a point where we can both just chill and have a good convo..and if u arent satisfied when we get off the phone then you need to call me back or send me a text or something...i dont want you to be staying up all night feeling bad and im  siting here thinking everything is ok with you..if u ever feel like that again then we both are gonna stay up and get to the bottom of it...and i know my blog just didnt help at all...i was basically playing on the line of alot of thoughts and feelings ive been having..and i guess me telling you not to take it the way you are taking it isnt gonna work so i might as well be a lil blunt wit it....first imma say you are a great boyfriend..hands down...wen i need you and do ur best to be there for me...u do go out of your way for me and i really do appreciate that...and you do show me that you love me in more ways than one...that blog wasnt directed towards u..it was more like directed to the ppl around me..wen i said i want someone to help me...means wen i need help in the sense of gettin home one the weekends or trying to buy something expensive or just getting my car fixed...these are things you can play a part in but you cant necessarily help with..the whole normal(ideal) relationship thing was more of my playing on the idea that i want to do more gf/bf stuff..and thats not something im even trying to go into because i dont want you to feel like im trying to make u do that...cause thats not you..the love thing was more of a love that you cnt fill...im always gonna have a void in my life where it should have been filled with love from my parents or someone close to me...i can look for it but i know that it will never be filled and you cant fill that void...yes you are there for me wen i need you but  who do i run to wen i cnt come to you wit a problem i have??the person that was there is gone now so i feel like i need to fill that spot with someone else...and yes bae i feel like i belong wen im with you but what about wen im not with you...how can i still have that belonging feeling..i cnt..i need good solid friends around me that can make me feel that way...i hope this cleared up some things for you..if not ill try again =)..love you