Can u say DADDY'S HOME??!?!?

well as u all know tyler went to basic training about 5 months back and now hes back home..words cant even describe how much ive missed him..even tho i need break it off wit him..i have nothing but love and respect for him..so since he got back today he decided that he wanted to drop in for a lil hello..(not complaining)..now we stood outside about 45 mins just talking(of course there was tension)(well on my part)..i didnt really know how to act..like i was super excited about seeing him again..but i was always not excited because i didnt know how he was gonna act wen he saw me(because of the break up)..we kinda just sat there and had a normal convo..(filled wit his sarcasm)..i couldnt really make eye contact wit him because 1.he had on shades..2.i was trying to hold back tears...why i wanted to cry idk..i broke up wit him right?? so why are my eyes tearing up??(who knows)..before he left..he leaned in and kissed me..just like old times..(and it was good lol)..caught me off gaurd..really was the last thing i was expecting him to do..so does this mean hes deciding to be in my life..or does this mean he was just trying to see if my feelings were still there??..(once again who knows)..after that i could barely hold the tears back..doubt if he noticed..but i think he caught on after he left..sigh..so confused right now..but as i always do..imma prepare myself for the worst..=/..out