Rehab:because baby ur my disease

ok I went to Boone this weekend for a field trip...and of course I missed Tyler...I started missing him even before I left...and I know he missed me too(well I hope he did) even tho he wouldn’t admit it..so the whole day Friday I didn’t really txt him like I usually do...why:idk.....so wen 9 rolled around I was ready to sit down and talk to him like we usually do...I even brought up the time with the teacher so she could tell us to go back to our rooms...so I went back to our room. Thru on pjs and climbed into bed...awaiting a much need convo wit him...I called...he picked up and I ask what he was doing and he sed playing the game...I automatically sighed right then because I knew it was going to be one of those night where our "Deal" would be broken once again(deal=he gets off the game at 9...I cut my music off..and we talk...at least for 10 mins)...so I asked the dreaded question...do u want me to call u back later...he answered...yea, call me back in 30 mins....*sigh* you call me back wen ur done with the game......just like I thought our deal was broken....this isn’t the first time this happen nor will it be the last.....I just don’t understand how hard is it for u to turn the game off at nine to talk to me for 10 mins...out of ur whole 24 hours...1440 minutes...I just want ten of them...am I asking too much or what?...yea I know u were stressed out and that’s ur reliever ...I get that ...its 110% clear....but fyi im not just here to compliment ur swag...I am human...you can talk to me about stuff..and I can give u logical feed back.....that game cant...yea it take ur mind off it...but honestly you can cut it off for 10 mins and face reality....then I thought about my previous question...do I ask too much from you....and I remembered a previous convo we had..where u said that I did....and now I understand that ....I do ask you to do too much for me...whether its big things like help me with this college app or small gestures like can you pass me the remote....I do ask u for too much cool...and another thing...when u said that you have ur own problems to deal with....i agreed...u have ur own life and ur own problems and so do I ....we are both old enough to be deal with some difficult decisions.....now I don’t want to be an added problem to ur life...I was put here to help you ...not to bring you down or hurt u...and im feeling like that’s what im doing...through out this whole year we have grown and learned so much about each other and about ourselves....and at the moment our learning has stopped...and we are being handed our test....and to be honest...we are failing...hard...I know u reading this is probably giving u another thought to have on ur brain but its something that we need to stop trying to run from, stop trying to act like it doesn’t happen...and stop trying to compromise...its time to find a solution....and right now...I have ab two and probably aren’t gonna like neither one of them...but what has to be done...needs to be done...my question to you is are u honestly happii with us right now??? see u at 9