lets Talk about Arms then get Married

so ive had alot of thoughts since the last time i blogged...and ive been meaning to put them into words but this time its harder than i thought it would be.....cus in this one i want to put feelings into words...and i want ppl to feel a part of wat i feel wen they read these words....still havent found the perfect words...but i need to get these thoughts out.................
so yea the other day i believe Tuesday tyler came over cus we were going to vbs together........so we went to church and everything was peachy....the teacher is retarded and the kids are just the same......so afterwards we went back to my house.......we kinda just sat in the dark for a while and talked........(here comes the feelings)....now talking is an activity that everyone does everyday.....we never really think about exactly how it feels when u are talkin to someone........but wen i talk to tyler its kinda like blogging....he'll ask me to explain something and ill start talking and before i realize wat im doing ive already pour some of my deepest thoughts and feelings out in front of him........now for me thats a big thing cus i dont talk to anyone like that.....so for me to do that he must be someone extra special...its kinda like thinking in ur head.....you're kinda talking to urself and saying wat you want and stuff u would never say out loud.....so hes kinda in my head if that makes since...........and the best part of talking to him is that hes seriously is listening.....to the point where he asks questions that i have to actually think about ......stuff that actually expands ur mind and makes you look at things from a different angle....and here the second because part that i bet every female would love to have.....about 97% of the time he actually understands wat im talking about...wow..like no lie...he understands.....so thats talking now lets move to when he touches me (not like that guys...this is the PG touch...wel PG 13)
so during our lil chill out session at my house....tyler did something that i had been longing for forever....he wrapped me in his arms in a way that was so comforting......yea ive been held by him and other ppl before but not in this way....this was like he was speaking to me through his arms......first it was saying in a playful way "yea i got you now move" lol.....then it move to a "bf line"..kinda like he was saying "look bae...listen to me....i love you" just something that will make you cheese .....then every once in a while you'll feel him squeeze a lil tighter saying"Dani, you have my heart and im not going anywhere, and you mean more to me than anything in this world" and wen i felt this hold i started talking to him and i was telling him the meaning of my squeezes you could say......wen i hold my pillow its like im missing his presence....wen i squeeze it gently i want him to hold me close...and wen i hold it tightly its like im afraid of loosing him.......but yea....back to him.....then sometimes he would wrap me up more...kinda like i was a little kid, to me saying, "imma protect you(whether you like it or not)from things that may hurt you emotional and physically"........then sometimes he would randomly push me away and just let go........basically saying"im getting to attached at the moment and its gonna make it hard for me to tell you gnite wen i go home" then he'll pull me back "but its hard to let go".........................wit all that sed i guess you can say his arms in my paradise....a mini vacation......my home away from home.................................and one last thought i wanna get out before i go........i was thinking during all this holding and cuddling like dang...i could marry this guy like right now if he asked..........and thats a feeling ive never felt before.....of course like every other female they try and picture their lives together and all that good stuff......but this time it wasnt like that....it was like ...im ready to marry you now....yea i still have a year left in school but i dont mind that....like if u ask..i would say yes wit no hesitation and no regrets.......but like he sed....it would look bad...so i must wait.........out