Fucc ur thoughts & ur feelins nigga, u dont know me

man today was the worst ......well maybe not the worst but one of the worst.....it started out ok didnt do much....slept in...got up took a very long shower and chilled out until it was time to go get sarah.....well before i left my gma asked to see the pics i took yesterday wen i went to try on prom dresses yesterday.....well most of the dresses had the back out and showed alil in the front but not too much....but after she was done looking at them....she basically sed that i need to cover my back and the rest of my body up cus i have a lot of blemishes and ppl are going pick on me......that hurt my feelings like str8 up...and its not the first time shes sed something like that.......but wen she does it hurts...think she is one of the man reasons why i dont like my self now.....but you know me i take my hurt and turn it in to anger so yea..i was pissed off......personally i dont think ppl will talk...cus i dont have blemishes like that but even if they do them whispering ass bitches aint got the balls to say it to my face so i aint worried...ill just let them know ..."dont let that dress fool you".......then after that some guy flicked me off while i was driving.....not a biggy but he just added to my anger.....non driving idiot.....the govt should deport his ass......then after that i was suppose to go get tyler but sarah had me driving her all around town and back again so i guess that i have to wait to see him tomorrow....now that hurt and wen it comes to pain with him ...thats pain that i cant turn into anger...it just hurts str8.......then my tv started messing up right before my a new episode of my favorite show(spongebob) came on but that got fixed....then J called and started talking about one of his new hoes.....ugh like i wanted to hear that...wen it comes to him....i start caring less and less....but yet he still has a lil attachment to me.....ugh maybe my day wasnt as bad as i thought but it still wasnt me best day....its about 10 mins bfore tyler usually calls...i know he'll make my day better....o well while im typing lets talk about wat happened yesterday.....well that afternoon me and my younger cousin were in my room listening to music wen my gma told me i had a visitor at the door....i asked who it was and she told me to come and see.....it turned out to be my older (half)sister who i havent seen in about 3-4 years......she had stopped by to give me her number and to get mine and to see how things were going for me....she sed that she'll come back and see me before Monday but i already know thats not happening...........how do i feel about it?.....it doesn't really bother me.....i wont take to her like a normal sister would cus i just dont care for her....in my eyes shes just my another one of my dads daughters(i have one more half sister...haven't seen her in over 7-8 years)......it would be nice if she could be apart of my life in a bigg way but hey i cant have everything in life can i?.....i told my mom she stopped by.....she snottily asked why....i guess thats her way of saying i still dont wanna deal with them and you shouldn't either....idk wat her problem is with them.....maybe before i graduate or one day over the summer ill go to my dads mom house and let them see me and try to really see wat they are about.....i dont wanna be a big part of their lives nor do i want to the same from them...but i do want to see wat they are about.....well i guess thats it for now...out....